Fix You

  I have a lot of pretty heavy things on my mind right now, and I really just want to write, to just put everything down and be free of it.  But I am frozen with anxiety thinking about a false audience, and the perceptions that people might have of me.  How lame!  Seriously, there are only like seven people that even read this blog, and I would assume that most people would immediately leave as soon as they realized there weren't any pictures!  

I'm tired of censoring and editing my life, or sugar-coating my posts to really cover-up the main issue which is this:  life is hard and I am having a hard time figuring things out.  But this is ok, this is part of the journey.

 So, for the record, I'm officially calling bull-crap on myself right now (you'll notice my lack of censoring just then...I'm on my way!).  And to end on a more creative note, I will leave you with the words of Coldplay:

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you